UPDATE: March 22nd, 2015
I am writing this in hopes that the
truth will be known. I am risking my reputation, my employment, my
freedom of speech and possibly my life in order to tell the truth.
Let it be known that I am
fighting for my life but it has become difficult due to the actions
of others. This is my personal account of what has happened to me and
what I am fighting for.
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"You'd have to be mental to get help from the Mental health system. There's nothing healthy about it." - E.B.
The purpose of the
mental system is to destroy the individual. The autonomy, purpose and
self-respect is removed while fear, dependence and a sense of failure
is put in its place. Through automatic labels, medication and
degrading comments from the doctors, nurses and staff -- the
individual is worn down, disgraced and eventually erased.
No more can the
individual expect to live as a productive person in society, for once
they are labeled as "mentally ill" this hideous slur will
plague them for the rest of their lives. They can no longer be able
to consider themselves of having any value, once told that they are
incompetent; that their only hope of surviving is to become helpless,
at the mercy of others through the: welfare system, residential
group homes, and corrupt medical system.
No more can they
expect to earn a decent living for themselves when the only job
offered to them (once they are "mentally ill") is cleaning
toilets or mopping floors -- often in the same facility that
victimized them.
I know this for a fact, because this
happened to me... as it has happened to many others.
It does not matter
under which circumstance the individual (now considered a "patient"),
entered into the facility -- falsely misled into believing they would
receive help or a "diagnosis".
It does not matter
that the person was previously under duress though harassment,
threats of rape, previous attempted assaults and was not able to ask
for help from the police, family or friends.
It does not matter
if the person seeking much needed help is also suffering from PTSD
(Post Traumatic Stress Disorder) -- none of these circumstances
matter to the mental system staff; doctors who are eager to prescribe
pills or complacent nurses, who are all waiting to get paid by the
person's private insurance.
It is interesting
to note these so-called professionals aren't so eager to help the
non-insured, under-insured or "welfare insured" (medicaid,
medical, etc.).
In fact I
personally witnessed someone in the "psych ward", being
cast out, into the street, with hardly a second thought for their
well-being. This individual had been previously living in a group
home for most of their life, had never had a chance for independence
while suffering from their affliction, and was forced to rely on the
mental system that in turn betrayed them.
But much more eager
were these mental professionals when dealing with a person who had
private insurance (such as myself); as I was forced against my will
to stay for an entire week with no regard to my rights as a patient
or my rights as a human being. With no knowledge of what would happen to me, under
total regulation of the system and ultimately treated like a prisoner
-- with no hope for escape.
Only the threat of
a lawyer was my ultimate escape -- as I had no family member to rescue me
from this situation.
The guilty, once
brought before the law will cower and flee or else they will make
excuses and protect themselves however they can.
So the doctor did,
and the nurses and staff, when I pointed the finger at them. They can
easily say that I am insane, but I know the truth. What they did to
me was inhumane -- you wouldn't wish this but on your worst enemy.
I realized they had
turned me into the
enemy -- against myself. They used my own writings against me,
knowing this was the only thing that mattered to me; they used this
as a "symptom" against me.
No
more could I hope for a normal life -- they did all they could to
tell me how incompetent, helpless and worthless I was.
"You
should be on welfare. You need to be in a group home. You need an
older man, preferably a doctor, who understands your "symptoms".
You're Autistic. You have Aspergers."
This
is what the nurse, doctor and social worker said to me while I was in
the hospital.
If
only I had known the lies of the perpetrators beforehand. If only I
hadn't trusted them, or the system or even my own family member they
had thoroughly tricked -- I could've avoided all of this. I could've
had a "normal life".
But
sometimes suffering brings knowledge and upon my escape from that
system, I fled. I entered into a quest for learning, to grow and
empower myself, to repair what was forcibly taken from me and become
a truly enlightened individual.
I
see the truth now and will work to prevent this crime from happening
to other people. But it is hard, it is very hard. The mental system
is a very complex prison, guarded by the prestige of doctors and
their false credentials under the guise of healer while underneath
they wear the hood of the executioner.
Anyone
who dares to take away your Freedom
in order to "help you" or "protect you" --
Anyone
who does this "for your own good" --
is a traitor.
Anyone
who tells you that you are unworthy, not fit for society or deemed
unsuitable for employment has an agenda.
That agenda serves only them and the system built around it.
Anyone
who would seek to make you helpless to them and their system -- is a
criminal,
under the law and under God.
God
gave us free will. We have that responsibility to use it wisely.
Those who try to take it away, only mean us harm.
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As
of yet, I am investigating and making records of the Patients' Rights
Violation they committed against me. Welfare and Institutions Code
Section 5325, ensures rights of those admitted in such facilities. It
remains to be seen how this will be resolved and what the result will
be. Retaliation against patients seeking their rights is prohibited
-- yet I will face retaliation from them and from society for
speaking the truth. I will continue to speak the truth until it is
heard and recognized, so help me God.
The ordinary response to atrocities is to banish them from consciousness. Certain violations of the social compact are too terrible to utter aloud: this is the meaning of the word unspeakable.Remembering and telling the truth about terrible events are prerequisites both for the restoration of the social order and for the healing of the individual victims.Those who attempt to describe the atrocities that they have witnessed also risk their own credibility. To speak publicly about one's knowledge of atrocities is to invite the stigma that attaches to victims.
J. L. Herman, Trauma and recovery (New York: Basic Books, 1992).
